27th
An update.
I’m having a cigarette outside right now, because I’m finding it necessary to be alone for a bit and just breathe. The house is full of life; people are running back and forth, the rooms are filled with the pleasant smells of Thanksgiving, and Christmas music is filling the place with a certain feeling of nostalgia. I never expected that this is where I’d be this year on Thanksgiving. So much has happened in a year. So many faces come and gone, so many memories made. It’s all a little overwhelming to think about, which is why I’m taking the opportunity to spend some time by myself.
Everything is so peaceful in this moment, and I love it. The wind is blowing through the trees, bringing with it a sense of unfamiliar serenity. I’m remembering how much I used to love that, just sitting outside and listening to the wind. This is my first sober Thanksgiving in a very long time. I did not know what to expect. So far it has been amazing, an experience I feel sorry to have missed out on for so many years. But I’m grateful to be sober for this day, and hopefully many more Thanksgivings to come.
A few days ago I wrote a post expressing some worry I had regarding a friend from my NA meetings. Her phone had been turned off for weeks, I hadn’t seen her in any meetings, and nobody knew how she was doing. I was afraid that she might have relapsed or gotten into some kind of serious trouble. Well this morning I got a call from her, and found out that she had been in prison. It was nothing too serious, and it felt so good to hear that she was ok and most of all, sober. Sometimes I really love the little twists and turns that life takes.
Everything is as it should be right now. I am happy, and surrounded by amazing people. I really couldn’t ask for anything else.